Today is much better than the past days. Probably because I feel a lot closer to God today than in the days before. Or even in the months past. Or than in the previous years of my life. I guess that’s how powerful it is to start your day with a prayer and digesting His Word, and I had not done it in ages until this morning. Uhm, prayer very often, but reading His Word, seldom. This is the very thing that changed in me over the months that my family and I are in a roller-coaster ride, which is probably an understatement of our reality:
Fighting bouts of Kristoff’s dyshidrotic eczema, which means going to the derma, and now the allergist, in every 2 weeks. His ongoing physical therapy due to his humerus bone fracture that affected his nerves. And currently, Liam’s treatment for pneumonia.
As I am writing this, the two are already in their dreams, while I keep on checking Liam’s breathing every 3 minutes or so. I am so scared, to be honest. I’m so scared to look at them and see their pain, because it hurts me to the core, too. But then, I have to keep going and doing my best. We all have to.
The months of struggle, emotionally, physically, and even spiritually wore me out. The good part, though, is that I have learned to surrender myself, my kids, and our whole lot of situation to the Lord. And it feels good. It feels good.
This is our life now. A life that I thought would only happen in movies or soaps. But it’s happening to us. I’m just still and I wait for the Lord’s miracles. I’m teaching the kids to be still and to pray. We would hold hands and pray any minute of the day. We’re all learning.
Meanwhile, outside, I love how everything is going. The plants are thriving, even though the strawberries have given me small fruits. I would still give a high-five for carrying on up to the fruiting stage, and it’s not really bad for a first-timer.
Unlike the strawberries, the wild mulberries are generous. Every day for 2 days now, we have several pickings for Liam who always asks for more.
The succulents are quite a sight. Low maintenance yet beautiful.
Our time outdoors is worthwhile just staring at these lovelies.
We pruned the grapes, too, crossing our fingers that this time they will give us fruits.
Life is still good.
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
— I Corinthians 10:13